80: Love

Someone said, "Fall in love over and over. Fear of love is ridiculous."

Hmm.. What am I afraid of, really?

79: Don't Know Why

78: Lost

I don't know what to say.

I don't know what I feel.

77: :)

76: This

75: To New Beginnings

Thank you, Lord, for reminding us that we can always rise again because You are here for us. Always :)

Happy easter, everyone!

74: A Trip To The Mountains

My mom, two brothers and I went to the mountains today for a quick change of environment. Our destination? Our family's favorite resort in Tanay, Pranjetto Hills. Here are some snapshots of the brief family retreat (more pictures and a longer post on my main blog, probably):

73: Good Friday

Thank You for life and love. Thank You for being my strength and salvation.

72: That's How You Know

Aww, I want to watch Enchanted again!

I especially love the reggae part!

71: I'm Getting Vaguer and Vaguer By The Day

Maybe this is what I need.

70: Oh Well

Time to sleep.

69: Untitled

How Do You Know?

68: Graduation

Today, my best friend graduated from the University of the Philippines. I can imagine how she feels--an intense happiness brought about by endless learnings, life-changing experiences, and hard work, and a strong fervor the serve the nation.

Those were the same feelings I had around a year ago when I moved a piece of clothing from one shoulder to the other. And although a part of me is captured by the other great university along Katipunan, I will forever be proud and grateful that I am an Iskolar ng Bayan.

67: What I Need

I thought I got what I needed but I was wrong. I found out that there's still something missing, and the right thing to do next is still asafawertarsewnhsohka to me.

Why does it have to be complicated? Avril Lavigne, kasalanan mo 'to eh.

66: Dizzyyy

Ako na ang weak. Red Horse, talo pa rin ako sa'yo.

65: The Road Less Travelled

This essay by Scott Peck is making me think. A lot.

64: Surprises

This day has been quite productive. First, Kat and I are finally part-time proofreaders for Gawon International, wohoo! We thankfully passed the training earlier which, despite being quite simple because our job basically requires us to take note of the errors in syntax of Korean-written articles, was a great learning experience. I discovered that "everyday" is an adjective, while "every day" is its adverb form that is supposedly used in sentences such as "I go to school every day." All this time, I used "everyday" for those kinds of sentences. And do you know what inflections are? I didn't (or at least I forget already, hihi). But that is all in the past. Haha. Anyway, real work starts tomorrow, and we have to proofread at least 10 articles per day from then on. Wish us lots of luck, patience and grammatical oversight.

After the training, Kat and I bonded at Megamall. We had a quick merienda at the food court, then bought some milk tea and sylvanas. My brother suddenly texted that a big box from JRS Express arrived for me, and so I rushed home. And when I entered our front door, the box waiting for me was indeed large--3/4 of a balikbayan box, I guess. I opened it and inside was at least P2000-worth of Unilever products! Dove, Close Up, Pepsodent, Surf, Axe, Pond's, Vaseline, Creamsilk, Sunsilk, and Clear! I screamed in delight, jumped around, and called my mom in Tanay. Haha.

Remember I won in Close Up's Taylor Swift Concert Tickets Raffle around two months ago? According to the letter that came along with the box, the package was Close Up's way of making up for the lower-rate tickets that we received. We should have gotten better seats, but apparently there was a mix-up in ticket coordination with Araneta Coliseum, so the winners ended up either in the Upper A section or in the Upper B section. But wooooah, that much products?! Intense lang talaga! Hahaha. As my one of my older brothers put it, "ano meron, pasko ba?" Hahaha!

So aside from "thanking Close Up" (I forgot to chronicle my television exposure here! I'm in Close Up's Taylor Swift Concert Promo commercial being shown on ETC and Jack TV, yo! Haha!), I should also say thank you to the entire Unilever Coporation now! Haha. What a suprise, really. I never imagined that it would be that much! THANK YOU, THANK YOU, UNILEVER!

So on with what happened today. After dinner, my youngest brother and I went to Ultra to jog. Following the mini work-out though, we ate the yummiest isaw in the world (AKA Dinky's isaw), so the little pounds that we shed eventually didn't matter anymore. And now, I'm here, resting and blogging, being the lazy daisy me again. Ah, this is ze life, mehn.

I better enjoy tonight, anyways. Tomorrow marks the day I commence my quest as a proofreading machine. Kat and I promised each other that we should receive at least P20,000 for our first pay on May 26. Take note, at least. That's how determined we are to make money money money. Haha. Cebu, wait for us. We shall afford a trip to you soon enough :p

63: Yay

Yay for Orsem productivity

Yay for Zumba

Yay for honesty

Yay for clarity

62: Here, There

I went from Makati to QC to Pasig then Makati again today. I got to experience a lot of first's:

1. Ate Korean ice cream (waffle ice cream nomnom! :3)

2. Had a lot of stuff hard-bound at SC (13 modules, yo!)

3. Saw my parents and brother's project near NAIA 3 light up (what a pretty sight, really)

4. Tried the Starbucks Drive-thru in The Fort

Today was kind of tiring, but still worthwhile and fun. I spent time with my mom and siblings, and I also met up with some UP friends for a bit. Earned loads of gossip in the process. Haha.

Excited for tomorrow's Gold's gym work-out! :D

61: It's Summertime

Summer vacation to-do list:

• Finish at least three leisure books
• Submit an article to Youngblood
• Lose 5-10 pounds
• Learn the basics of driving
• Learn how to cook at least three dishes
• Hit the beach
• Go to Cebu, wohoo!
• Paint and draw
• Get a part-time job
• Save up
• Take lots of photos
• Catch up on Gossip Girl, The Big Bang Theory, HIMYM and Modern Family
• Go on endless movie marathons
• Spend time with my mom, dad and youngest brother in Tanay
• Paint my nails green, blue green, melon or pink
• Wear dresses more often
• Finish reading the speedreading book
• Get a massage and/or foot spa
• Study for the compre exams

60: Habits

Yesterday was a day of missed med school habits:

• Studying and learning (cell, biochem and genetics)
• Eating, eating and eating (pizza, pasta, mojos, chicken, chips and Dunkin' Donuts)

So far, I don't SUPER miss med school yet. Onti pa lang :p Oh summer vacation, you bring me so much bliss and freedom. I love you.

59: Fail, Win

FAIL

Alex and I were supposed to attend the Zumba class at Gold's Gym Galle at 5:30 this afternoon. I was waiting for her at Gloria Jean's. When she arrived a little after 5:30, the first thing that she told me was, "OMG may kasalanan ako sa'yo, Bea!" Apparently, she left her gym voucher in her car, and she left her car at school. So she left her things with me and went back to pick up the voucher.

Around 15 minutes later, my phone rang. It was Alex, and hilariously, she realized upon arriving at school that her car keys were in her bag, which she left with me at Galle! So to save time and energy, I went to school with our things. We then rode her car and went immediately to Galle so that we could still make it to the 6:30 class.

But the sequence of failures did not end there. There were no free parking spaces in the carpark, so we circled around the place in search for a potential parking space. We ended up at the exit part of the carpark, and there was no turning back because there was already a long line of cars waiting behind us and we had to space to back off or to U-turn. So we sped out the exit without paying nor returning the car ticket. We then went back to the carpark entrance, and the people there interrogated us on why we already had a ticket, how come we were allowed to go out without paying, which security guard led us out, etc etc. We caused a bit of a commotion, but then the carpark entrance teller thankfully freed us from shame and hassle and simply gave us a new car ticket.

We got to Gold's Gym a little before 7:00. We were excited to find out that there were 7:30 classes, and cool ones at that! The choices were yoga, street dance, and smoves (hiphop), the latter two of which we strongly preferred. We became ecstatic since despite the many blunders, finding out that we could still attend fun, heart-pumping classes was refreshing.

Then we realized that we were wrong. We found out that the 7:30 classes were for other days, and the classes available during Fridays were only until 6:30, so there was actually no way for us get a work-out today. So much for anticipation, really.

Alex and I simply ended up bonding at Cerealicious. It was a fun heart-to-heart talk--a necessary one, even. Although a lot of time and energy were not put to good use, at least I got to spend time with Alex and talk about all things girly and cheesy with her. Fun fun! :)

WIN

I finally have a part-time job! I got accepted for the Korean proofreading thing and training starts on Wednesday. YAHOOO!

After the disappointment last Thursday, this was a pump up to my self-efficacy. Thank you, Lord. I needed this.

58: Out There

It was a lovely Thursday morning. I woke up with a smile on my face, happy and excited for the work that I would be doing. I carefully picked the clothes I'd be wearing the night before. I prepared my things and packed it in my backpack. I wanted everything to be perfect. At last, I landed a part-time job for a company--a job that I'm really passionate about.

But then I reached the office, and I found out that I wasn't in yet. There were two of us waiting on the HR person, and only one of us would get the job.

I knew at once that he had the advantage. We talked a bit, and I found out that he was a great and talented guy. He was older, more mature. He had numerous professional experiences tucked under his sleeve. He had a great personality. He was better than me.

When my phone rang with an unknown number on the screen while I was having lunch, I kind of expected that the call would end with me not ecstatic. And lo and behold, I pressed the end call button with glumness. They picked him.

Yes, it is not a big deal. It was obvious from the very start that he was more appropriate for the job. Besides, it's just a quick sideline, nothing serious. But honestly, I find it hard to accept what happened. The expectation, the excitement. My confidence, My skills. This is the first time I actually applied for an "office" job, and I was not accepted.

"Sorry, but we opted to select the other person. I hope you are not too disappointed."

Rejection is difficult. It really hits you. Sadly, it really hits you hard.

Ah, growing up.

57: End the Boredom

I've got a layouting sideline tomorrow and Friday, and hopefully a part-time proofreading job.

No more food-movies-sleep cycle for me. Productivity, hello to you.

57: Dreaming

"Happy are those who dream dreams, for they are ready to pay the price."

56: Sometimes

Sometimes, I don't get you.

Sometimes, I don't get me either.

Sometimes, I wonder about how you changed somehow.

Sometimes, I'm scared.

Sometimes, I want to step back.

Sometimes, I wish we could just settle what needs to be settled.

Sometimes, I just miss you.

Sometimes, I wish I could just tell you everything.

***

I will tell you everything, sooner or later.

55: Irony

Expectations vs. reality.

54: Behind

Contrary to what I mentioned in an earlier post of mine, I wasn't able to catch up on the many entries that I missed. Oh well, I'll just start again today, hopefully sticking to the daily posting that is the main purpose of this blog.

So what have I been up to? There's school, of course--my main stressor in life. It ended last week actually, but we had to wait for the results of our grades so the stress went on even after classes concluded. The grades for all modules were completed just this morning, and I'm so ecstatic to say that I passed all modules and I'm off to my 2nd year of med school. NO REMOVALS, YO! TAKE THAT, CARDIO-PULMO, ENDO, AND NEURO! WADDUUUUP!

I'm so happy happy happy! As in HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY! I screamed and got teary-eyed while I hugged my mom this morning after finding out I passed. At last, all the pressure and fear are off and I'm free as a bird this summer vacation! Still, I do hope and pray that my batchmates who need to take removals will pass. Some of them are even my closest friends in med, and I simply can't imagine my 2nd year in med school without them. It just wouldn't be the same, really :(

In other news, I'm so excited for summer! Although I am as poor as a rat, I can't wait to find a part-time job, as well as to get fit! Hopefully I'll land an academic tutorial, a writing, or a sales stint soon. Jogging in Ultra has also been really fun and fulfilling lately, so I'll be doing more of that. I just wish I could play badminton soon, too. It sucks that it day in the badminton court costs a lot, and I'm flat broke now.

But, what the hell. FINALLY, I CAN SAY HELLO, SUMMER VACATION!

53: Smile

Milk tea tastes a whole lot better when someone dear to you made it for you.

Thank you :)